Always sad but acted HappY....

I've always encountered problems in every single day... Never once would I have my own freedom.... Sometimes, I just can't tolerate and I wanted to hide somewhere...somewhere where no people watch me cry...But, I just can't give in, and I've had enough for that. I've had enough of problems like:

• Family problems
• Friends
• Events
  
  

I'll briefly explain for the above points:

Family problems

My family, have a total of 4 members. Which consist of: My mum, Dad, sister and me. My mum is a housewife which i believed she did nothing at home except for watching TV or going shopping to malls like Jurong Point, IMM, Bugis Junction, Boon Lay Shopping Centre and Gek Poh.

She loves spending, and I don't even know if anyone believe me if I said she didn't give me a single cent for allowance. I myself works in Jurong Spring Community Centre McDonalds, which is located near Jurong West Blk 500+ Market. My pay is currently $3.66/hr which I don't think is much(I mean my pay). During the collection of my 'N' levels, she actually objected me to further my studies even though I only ask to go for ITE instead of proceeding to Secondary 5(which I could!). I actually quarreled with her and the majority of the neighbours who've been staying around me for the past 2 - 3 years came to knock on our door! They actually settled my problems of further-ing my studies by talking to her.


My mum actually promised to pay my school fees for the sake of my studies...Which is actually good enough to me. The rest, which is uniform, books, class fund, allowance in school, prepaid card, I will have to find my own ways in paying. Sometimes I do have problems paying many things at once! And I don't know what to do...I do hope there's a way out of this mess...

Friends

I have a best friend still pursueing Secondary 5. Below is a number picture of us:

Above are the best shots of us. She have longer hair and bigger eyes, which I quite admire it. She recently broke up with her boyfriend, and I think she's quite upset now. But she shares all her problems with me and we face it together.

The other close friend of mine study as the same college as me. She's my classmate too. But unfortunately, I do not have her photo. If not, i'll sure post it in here. But she tends to lose her heart in study and doesn't know her limits to be lazy as exams are around the corner. I've slowly tried to warn her seriously but she didn't take my advice. What should I do? Its just hopeless. I hope when she see my blog she'll understand what I mean and won't envy me.

Events

I've joined quite a number of events which I first thought I won't be chosen. But in the end, all turn up to clash together. Events I joined are namely:

• Students' Council
• Asian Youth Games volunteery
• National Youth Achivement Award (NYAA)
• Interactive Club
• Working as crew

With these events, it all clash together each day. Sometimes my manager even put me late in the night to work. I get totally pissed-off by them.